A blog post a day is a LOT! I am inspired by this project but not every day will be as impassioned as the last. Maybe today I will simply share the dream I had last night. First, a little background: Aedan is going to California on Thursday, returning Monday night. The idea when Andy moved back to California in the summer was to help facilitate the kids visiting him. In reality, only Aedan has much interest in visiting and it's not a ton of interest. Also in reality, the only one who can fund these visits is me, since Andy doesn't work, have an income, or have any organizational skills. I am beginning to question the value of these visits.
OK, so onto the dream. In my dream, after facilitating getting Aedan on the plane for this trip, I came home and discovered through Facebook that Andy was actually visiting Portland seeing his ex-girlfriend Jess during the days Aedan was in California. I was so that he was missing his son's visit! But I also didn't want to confront Andy or even risk having to see Andy in person while he was in the same town as me, so I just let it ride, knowing Aedan was having a fine time visiting cousins & other family members. But I was also really outraged, like this was some final step and I wouldn't take it any more, but also not really knowing what that meant. It was a dream about wanting to confront and make change but at the same time I was attempting to ride things to ride out peacefully and feeling shitty about it.
It was a dream very reflective of reality.
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